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Monday, 27 April 2009

  • "Everything Happens for a Reason"...words of wisdom, or naive nonsense?

    We've all heard it or read it somewhere, sometime in our lives. Maybe it was a profound quote from a TV show monologue, maybe it was part of a great revelation of the protagonist in a classic novel, or maybe your drunk uncle Harry uttered it as he collapsed on your front lawn on New Years Eve. It was one of my first headlines on MySpace (yeah...I remember that far back in my social networking site history! incredible feat? more like a tragic waste of long term memory). Hell, maybe I even blogged about it on Xanga.

    Needless to say, I have at one point viewed this quote as communicating a valuable aspect of life as we know it. At the time of its gracing my MySpace profile, I had just started or was at least about to start my senior year of high school. My friends who read this Xanga already know the whole kit and kaboodle...

    I transferred to Arroyo High, the crosstown rival of my old school. My family situation was difficult at the time, as my dad and his girlfriend had split up and we (my dad, brother, and I) were forced to move out. Finding an affordable home for rent was incredibly stressful, and it took a whole lot out of my 65-year-old, pacemaker-wearing, SOLDIER of a dad. Through a coincidental yet miraculous turn of events, we found a "house" in Arroyo HS's district. I put that in quotes because really, it was a garage that was being remodeled into a one bedroom home, by the owner of the house in front. Honestly, I still can't believe it to this day that the three of us crammed into a GARAGE. It had all the amenities of a house--a kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, and living room. Just move that down to a WAY smaller scale--so that it all fits into a 2-car garage--for a mental picture.

    I'll try and make this long and complicated story short: I pissed off a LOT of people. My decision to transfer translated into what many people took as a slap in the face. What's funny though is that I'm the kind of person who couldn't even piss off Ebenezer Scrooge if I tried. I've never been in a brawl, and had never even cussed anyone out (up until a certain event during all of this, no further comment!).

    But all of a sudden I was getting badmouthed by everyone--from students I didn't even TALK to, all the way up to the top administrators of the school, and even some friends' parents who had once invited me into their homes and drove me to basketball practices and tournaments. Very little badmouthing was done to my face or in my presence. Most of it was done behind my back. And some of it--but probably the most serious and disgusting badmouthing--was done anonymously on a widely-read public internet forum whose audience consists of all basketball enthusiasts in southern California. So all this dirty laundry was hung out to dry for anyone who wanted to see it. It was pathetic. I look back on it sometimes, and am still astonished at the magnitude of my actions. It was a big mess of politics, to say the least. But I did made my decision to transfer for two reasons: (1) it was a better situation for my family, and (2) I am very, VERY passionate about my ideals.

    In the process of the whole journey, I learned the horrible feeling of being betrayed by those I thought were friends, and hearing about the anonymous hatred of strangers, kind of like the hatred most politicians must feel. I'm almost unsure of which of these two feelings is worse. More importantly though, I strengthened bonds with my TRUE friends, and made countless other priceless new relationships that will last me a lifetime. I wouldn't trade any of what I experienced at the end of high school for anything. Who was it that said having enemies is a good thing, because it means you've stood up for something you believe in at some point in your life? Pretty big lesson to pick up on such a huge scale at an early stage of life, I'd say.

    With girls basketball being one of the hugest and most competitive historical rivalries between the schools, I put a LOT of shit on the line to think I could pull it off. It was like being traded from the Lakers to the Celtics...most of Los Angeles will label you a traitor and most of Boston already hates your guts anyway. Why the hell would a person do that to their career? Well, I must have done something right in a previous life, because the stars aligned and the Arroyo Lady Knights had a basketball season that's sealed in the record books forever. It's the sort of thing movies are made of and books are written about...maybe if it didn't happen in El Monte, California and maybe if it involved a celebrity, I suppose. But anyway, the story here is not that I did anything special or extraordinary--the story here is that a beautiful and inspiring thing came out of a very ugly situation. Why? Because I learned there are still lots of people out there who care about building up their fellow human beings, rather than tearing them down.   

    Anyway, that's essentially why I first adopted the phrase "Everything happens for a reason" as a sort of philosophical mantra of mine. Lately though--and by lately I mean the last couple of years--I really do believe this is only a partially accurate view of life, and maybe even a more short-sighted one. Let me explain.

    (to be continued)

     

     

     

     

          

Monday, 20 April 2009

  • I Killed a Squirrel; Why You Should Love Animals

    I'm back!! Yes I'm back. I've really missed this little universe of Xanga the past couple of weeks. Thanks to everyone who commented my last entry on dating, which was written like 10 years ago, so you probably don't even remember you commented it  I've been up to my neck in schoolwork and things, not to mention I was driving all over the midwest during Easter break and didn't have much time for Internet stuff.

    So me and a couple friends took a road trip to Michigan the other week. We drove through Chicago and spent a short night there. The pizza was amazing!! Giorgino's was the name of the restaurant (I think). Maybe I was just really hungry, but I'm pretty sure that was the most incredible pizza I've had in my entire LIFE. I took my first train ride too. We spent rest of the week in Monroe, Michigan at my friend's house. I popped my Chuck E. Cheese cherry, finally! It took 21 years to do but I'm glad I finally went! There was this one creepy old dude who walked in by himself right behind us. We lost him by the time we got in. He looked like he could have been one of those guys in the amateur sketches for wanted pedophiles on the 6 o'clock news. I really hope he was just meeting his family there or something and he wasn't a serial child molester

    Monroe is just on the southern border of Michigan, so we went to Tuledo, Ohio a couple times for shopping and stuff. We bought FIREWORKS too  They're legal in Michigan, and it was the first time I'd actually seen a STORE that sold fireworks (and some hardware). It was this giant warehouse that had every explosive thing that you could think of that isn't classified as a weapon of mass destruction. Since that stuff is basically outlawed in California (and Iowa, as I found out) we took full advantage of the situation. Bottle rockets are theeeeeeee bestttt!

    On the way back to school, I drove the final 5 hours or so of the trip. Somewhere on the I-80 west in eastern Iowa I ran over a poor little squirrel that was running across the road. It came from out of the bushes and even though I tried to swerve out of the way, it was too late. I've never killed an animal with a car before  Partly out of logical deduction, but mostly just to clear my own soiled conscience, I've concluded that this squirrel committed suicide. My action of vehicular homicide, therefore, was really an act of consideration for the squirrel's true intentions. I can't even explain how horrible I felt as I glanced at my rearview mirror and saw the poor little thing on the asphalt behind us.

    What really sucks is that before we left, my friend's grandmother (the sweetest of sweethearts) told us this Native American myth about why you should be kind to animals and give a good home to as many pets as you can in your lifetime. It's said that when you die and you're about to cross over into the next world, you have to step on these rocks to get there. All of the animals you were kind to in your life will help you get across. The more pets you had, the better off you'll be.

    So now I can look forward to a pack of angry squirrels clawing at me as I cross over into the afterlife. With my luck, God will probably turn out to be a squirrel. Curse you, I-80 W.

     

    peace&love

Thursday, 02 April 2009

  • Define: "DATING"

    Ok, I know this sounds like a really simple concept. But lately this word has gotten rather complicated for me. Maybe you folks can help me out.

    When can you actually say that you're dating someone? After 2 dates? After 2 weeks? 2 months? Is it only dating if you and the other person like each other? Is it dating only when it's mutually exclusive (neither of you are dating another person at the same time)? Or maybe, would you only say you're dating someone if you were actually a couple?

    And another question, is there a difference between "dating someone" and "seeing someone"? I'm thinking there isn't, but Flip got me thinkin about it for a minute lol...

    There are probably a lot of different ways people can define it. I guess I'm only asking this because there's this dude I went out with a couple times (just to the movies once and lunch on another occasion). Despite having a lot of stuff in common we just don't have any chemistry, and I decided that I'd stop going out with him on these one-on-one hangouts. I have this creepy feeling that he's told all his friends that I'm "the girl he's dating". I don't see it that way at all. I guess my personal definition of dating is if it's been at least 2-3 dates, and both people are pretty interested in each other.

    And, of course, when BOTH of you think it's okay to start telling your friends you're dating this person.

    That's all I got for now. Take it eaaaazy beezies!


    peace&love



     

Tuesday, 24 March 2009

  • Self perpetuated insomnia

    One thing I like to do from time to time is invent new diseases. I don't mean actually creating them by breeding microorganisms in a petri dish, but rather giving a name to some sort of psychological, physical, or otherwise abnormal condition which I feel can one day be considered a medical disease.

    Self Perpetuated Insomnia (SPI). A primarily psychological, but consequently physical and potentially emotional condition in which the diagnosed develops habits which keep him/her from sleeping at "normal" hours. Reasons completely unrelated to obligatory tasks such as homework, or a job. Reasons more like: spontaneously drinking coffee at 11:00pm, after having woken up at 10:00pm from a 4-hour "power nap". 

    I'm convinced there are many of SPI victims out there. If you're one of them, I think we should collaborate on some sort of Self Perpetuated Insomniacs Anonymous group. Face it folks: we have a problem.

    So I'm not gonna lie, my track meet this past Saturday was less than spectacular. It was my first time vaulting on an actual runway and pit in 4 years. I was rusty, and it showed. I didn't clear the opening height of 7' unfortunately (my old personal best was 8'6"), and the winning height ended up being around 11'. I got smoked! I was expecting it though. But it's one thing to expect something and then to actually experience it. I practically had a N00B sign taped to my back the whole time I was there.

    I also ran the 100H (100 high-hurdles; 100-meters is a straightaway on the track, and the hurdles are set on a slightly higher height than the 300 or 400-meter race. Just a little clarification on the track vernacular ). I was either last or tied for last with my teammate, at around 21 seconds. That's a pretty average high school time, which is fine considering I've had less than 2 weeks of hurdle practice since my high school days. 

    Needless to say, I have my work cut out for me (for lack of a better phrase). On a side note, I've got some of my color back  It was a beautiful sunny day in Rock Island, Illinois. The pastier skinned folks didn't fare so well though. Thank goodness for the extra melanin in my skin! On another side note, I twisted my ankle on my last pole vault run. No bueno. It's been swollen the past couple of days. F MY LIFE!

    Anyway, today I did some career research. I'm taking a Business and Technical Writing course in the fall. It actually seems like an interesting career. Of course there are pros and cons, but I spent a good chunk of time this afternoon looking into it. Good stuff.

    It's almost 2:00AM. I had something else to blog about but I really should find something a little more productive to do. Not to say that entertaining all of you with my profound wisdom isn't productive. But I should really move on to some homework or something.

    Toodles

     

     

    peace&love

     

     

     

Saturday, 21 March 2009

  • the hell....

    ....am I doing awake? I have to leave for a track meet in Illinois in about 3 hours. It's 4:37am (4+3=7. YES! ) I took a big nap earlier. I don't know what the F is wrong with me.

    Speaking of which, I'm competing in the 100m high hurdles, and the pole vault tomorrow. Yaaaaay me! I'll be posting my results on here, fer suuuuure.

    Random blurb. ReMeMbEr wHeN iT WaS cOoL To TyPe LyKe tHis?

    I apologize....sometimes I get delusional when I'm up at twilight.

    I have a long day ahead of me. I'll leave you all with a dope song to listen to. You better go check it out. I'll be really upset if you don't.

    The Cars - Let the Good Times Roll




    pEaCe&LoVe



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