We've all heard it or read it somewhere, sometime in our lives. Maybe it was a profound quote from a TV show monologue, maybe it was part of a great revelation of the protagonist in a classic novel, or maybe your drunk uncle Harry uttered it as he collapsed on your front lawn on New Years Eve. It was one of my first headlines on MySpace (yeah...I remember that far back in my social networking site history! incredible feat? more like a tragic waste of long term memory). Hell, maybe I even blogged about it on Xanga.
Needless to say, I have at one point viewed this quote as communicating a valuable aspect of life as we know it. At the time of its gracing my MySpace profile, I had just started or was at least about to start my senior year of high school. My friends who read this Xanga already know the whole kit and kaboodle...
I transferred to Arroyo High, the crosstown rival of my old school. My family situation was difficult at the time, as my dad and his girlfriend had split up and we (my dad, brother, and I) were forced to move out. Finding an affordable home for rent was incredibly stressful, and it took a whole lot out of my 65-year-old, pacemaker-wearing, SOLDIER of a dad. Through a coincidental yet miraculous turn of events, we found a "house" in Arroyo HS's district. I put that in quotes because really, it was a garage that was being remodeled into a one bedroom home, by the owner of the house in front. Honestly, I still can't believe it to this day that the three of us crammed into a GARAGE. It had all the amenities of a house--a kitchen, bathroom, bedroom, and living room. Just move that down to a WAY smaller scale--so that it all fits into a 2-car garage--for a mental picture.
I'll try and make this long and complicated story short: I pissed off a LOT of people. My decision to transfer translated into what many people took as a slap in the face. What's funny though is that I'm the kind of person who couldn't even piss off Ebenezer Scrooge if I tried. I've never been in a brawl, and had never even cussed anyone out (up until a certain event during all of this, no further comment!).
But all of a sudden I was getting badmouthed by everyone--from students I didn't even TALK to, all the way up to the top administrators of the school, and even some friends' parents who had once invited me into their homes and drove me to basketball practices and tournaments. Very little badmouthing was done to my face or in my presence. Most of it was done behind my back. And some of it--but probably the most serious and disgusting badmouthing--was done anonymously on a widely-read public internet forum whose audience consists of all basketball enthusiasts in southern California. So all this dirty laundry was hung out to dry for anyone who wanted to see it. It was pathetic. I look back on it sometimes, and am still astonished at the magnitude of my actions. It was a big mess of politics, to say the least. But I did made my decision to transfer for two reasons: (1) it was a better situation for my family, and (2) I am very, VERY passionate about my ideals.
In the process of the whole journey, I learned the horrible feeling of being betrayed by those I thought were friends, and hearing about the anonymous hatred of strangers, kind of like the hatred most politicians must feel. I'm almost unsure of which of these two feelings is worse. More importantly though, I strengthened bonds with my TRUE friends, and made countless other priceless new relationships that will last me a lifetime. I wouldn't trade any of what I experienced at the end of high school for anything. Who was it that said having enemies is a good thing, because it means you've stood up for something you believe in at some point in your life? Pretty big lesson to pick up on such a huge scale at an early stage of life, I'd say.
With girls basketball being one of the hugest and most competitive historical rivalries between the schools, I put a LOT of shit on the line to think I could pull it off. It was like being traded from the Lakers to the Celtics...most of Los Angeles will label you a traitor and most of Boston already hates your guts anyway. Why the hell would a person do that to their career? Well, I must have done something right in a previous life, because the stars aligned and the Arroyo Lady Knights had a basketball season that's sealed in the record books forever. It's the sort of thing movies are made of and books are written about...maybe if it didn't happen in El Monte, California and maybe if it involved a celebrity, I suppose. But anyway, the story here is not that I did anything special or extraordinary--the story here is that a beautiful and inspiring thing came out of a very ugly situation. Why? Because I learned there are still lots of people out there who care about building up their fellow human beings, rather than tearing them down.
Anyway, that's essentially why I first adopted the phrase "Everything happens for a reason" as a sort of philosophical mantra of mine. Lately though--and by lately I mean the last couple of years--I really do believe this is only a partially accurate view of life, and maybe even a more short-sighted one. Let me explain.
(to be continued)